Social Contract
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Intramurals
Let the Games Begin!
After…
Our 3rd qtr examinations came to an end
“Whew! What a day!”
After our test, I reported to the MAPEH dept. to help. I got the scotch tape and asked Rose Abi to help me in fixing the schedule and posting the Stuff for the Sports Club.
I thought I could hang out with my classmates but Jenine came and told me that I’m one of the runners in the torch ceremony. Shocked, I came with her while briefing me. We were asked to wear all white and I didn’t have those things at that time. Jenine offered her shorts after her run. “Hindi lang pla torch ang ipapasa pati shorts!” I thought everything was settled but Mam Palisoc approached me and asked for the snare drums. “Wahhh!!!! Nobody reminded me and I thought it was just for the cheering practice or something. I was so guilty because I am so forgetful and I realized that it was my responsibility. Kuya Timmy comforted me and told me “Snare drums? Hindi naman mhalaga un, sa tingin mo maririnig un ng buong school?” I smiled and I remembered that we were the emcees of the program. I was already comfortable in the stage when we were asked to prepare for the run. As planned, I waited for Jenine and changed. I hurried but I was already late. The student already ran 2 rounds just for me. I felt ashamed but it was okay… hehehe… “Ganun naman talaga parati”
“Whew!” The games officially started and I attended the briefing for the badminton tournament. I met my teammate Anna Rose and I invited her to play with me. I also asked Danikko and Darren because they will also play doubles. Anna Rose taught me the right strokes and told me if my shots were in. Jay V and Ryle advised me about my play because it was like I am playing Tennis and I usually do a “smash” which is not a good strategy in badminton. Huhuhuhu, I can’t help it because I’m really used in playing Tennis. “Good luck nalang tlaga sa akin tom”
Moseley and Einstein won all their games today!! We are not expecting anything but to have fun and enjoy the intramurals.
But we hope that we can also reach the Finals so that we can play till Friday.
Good Luck EINSTEIN-MOSELEY!!
Jay Mark and I decided to go home early. Along the way we met Mark David and persuaded him to take the LRT. We talked about College and our courses. We all passed the UPCAT but Mavid’s mom wants him to go to UST because he is one of the top 100 passers in BS Architecture. He really wants that course but he also wants to go to UP even if he didn’t get his 1st and 2nd choice.
Like the usual, Jay Mark and I were already planning our sched. I asked him to drive for me but he refused. I offered to be his driver but he also refused. “Offending noh?” But he told me that he is scared of driving because we might get into an accident. Wahahahaha!
We settled for the MRT but he said that he would join me only up to Guadalupe. I almost cried because we already talked about it before. I persuaded him that we would both take Fx at Ayala since we will have the same schedule for everything. We are planning to attend morning classes and go home by 2 or 3pm so that we can hang out at the mall. “Taas pangarap noh? To think BA PolSci ako, si Jay Mark BS Architecture at si Gerard BS Biology. Paano kami same sched? Wahahaha!!” Gerard also wants to join us!! Yey!! Together again!!!
Congratulations for those who passed! Rallies Here I Come!! ^____________^
Our 3rd qtr examinations came to an end
“Whew! What a day!”
After our test, I reported to the MAPEH dept. to help. I got the scotch tape and asked Rose Abi to help me in fixing the schedule and posting the Stuff for the Sports Club.
I thought I could hang out with my classmates but Jenine came and told me that I’m one of the runners in the torch ceremony. Shocked, I came with her while briefing me. We were asked to wear all white and I didn’t have those things at that time. Jenine offered her shorts after her run. “Hindi lang pla torch ang ipapasa pati shorts!” I thought everything was settled but Mam Palisoc approached me and asked for the snare drums. “Wahhh!!!! Nobody reminded me and I thought it was just for the cheering practice or something. I was so guilty because I am so forgetful and I realized that it was my responsibility. Kuya Timmy comforted me and told me “Snare drums? Hindi naman mhalaga un, sa tingin mo maririnig un ng buong school?” I smiled and I remembered that we were the emcees of the program. I was already comfortable in the stage when we were asked to prepare for the run. As planned, I waited for Jenine and changed. I hurried but I was already late. The student already ran 2 rounds just for me. I felt ashamed but it was okay… hehehe… “Ganun naman talaga parati”
“Whew!” The games officially started and I attended the briefing for the badminton tournament. I met my teammate Anna Rose and I invited her to play with me. I also asked Danikko and Darren because they will also play doubles. Anna Rose taught me the right strokes and told me if my shots were in. Jay V and Ryle advised me about my play because it was like I am playing Tennis and I usually do a “smash” which is not a good strategy in badminton. Huhuhuhu, I can’t help it because I’m really used in playing Tennis. “Good luck nalang tlaga sa akin tom”
Moseley and Einstein won all their games today!! We are not expecting anything but to have fun and enjoy the intramurals.
But we hope that we can also reach the Finals so that we can play till Friday.
Good Luck EINSTEIN-MOSELEY!!
Jay Mark and I decided to go home early. Along the way we met Mark David and persuaded him to take the LRT. We talked about College and our courses. We all passed the UPCAT but Mavid’s mom wants him to go to UST because he is one of the top 100 passers in BS Architecture. He really wants that course but he also wants to go to UP even if he didn’t get his 1st and 2nd choice.
Like the usual, Jay Mark and I were already planning our sched. I asked him to drive for me but he refused. I offered to be his driver but he also refused. “Offending noh?” But he told me that he is scared of driving because we might get into an accident. Wahahahaha!
We settled for the MRT but he said that he would join me only up to Guadalupe. I almost cried because we already talked about it before. I persuaded him that we would both take Fx at Ayala since we will have the same schedule for everything. We are planning to attend morning classes and go home by 2 or 3pm so that we can hang out at the mall. “Taas pangarap noh? To think BA PolSci ako, si Jay Mark BS Architecture at si Gerard BS Biology. Paano kami same sched? Wahahaha!!” Gerard also wants to join us!! Yey!! Together again!!!
Congratulations for those who passed! Rallies Here I Come!! ^____________^
Sunday, January 21, 2007
A Thousand Masks
A Thousand Masks
All these years I’ve waited for someone like you
A brave young soldier who’ll save me from this dungeon
You’ll take me away and regain my heart
This is only but a wish, a hope,
A dream
***********************
You wear a mask, a thousand masks
I don’t know why but I’ve never asked you
For each mask lies a different person,
A different you
I watched you closely
I counted all your masks
It really bothered me
But still,
I never asked why
Every night I pray,
That you’ll return safely from your battles
For in that armor, I can see a different person
A different you
I could just count your smiles
Like every girl would do
But your mask is hiding what’s inside,
And it’s the real you
You are different in every angle,
In every aspect of life
Why do you need to hide from those masks?
For I can see how beautiful you are inside
Still, I stayed
I never asked why
You seem contented
Or is it just another mask, you are holding?
The time will come
When you’ll show your face
I will be there waiting
To see your real smile
^_______^
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All these years I’ve waited for someone like you
A brave young soldier who’ll save me from this dungeon
You’ll take me away and regain my heart
This is only but a wish, a hope,
A dream
***********************
You wear a mask, a thousand masks
I don’t know why but I’ve never asked you
For each mask lies a different person,
A different you
I watched you closely
I counted all your masks
It really bothered me
But still,
I never asked why
Every night I pray,
That you’ll return safely from your battles
For in that armor, I can see a different person
A different you
I could just count your smiles
Like every girl would do
But your mask is hiding what’s inside,
And it’s the real you
You are different in every angle,
In every aspect of life
Why do you need to hide from those masks?
For I can see how beautiful you are inside
Still, I stayed
I never asked why
You seem contented
Or is it just another mask, you are holding?
The time will come
When you’ll show your face
I will be there waiting
To see your real smile
^_______^
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
For Abychu!
Para sa Kanya toh!!
Jan 16,2007
8pm: I arrived home. I didn't eat but I went straight to my bedroom. I opened my pc and proceeded to my blog. Lay out mode!!!!
10:35pm I was about to save my new layout when I accidentally pressed the "Clear edits" button! "waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" but I didn't stop there. because.."Para sa kanya toh"
January 17, 2007
12:35am: Tada!! After some irritating soundz from my brother "ZZZzzzzzz.." I finished the new lay out of my blog. It's simple but I really felt happy and satisfied.
"Ayan sa wakas, mapupuntahan na ni Abychu ung blog ko!"
Hope you like it! wahahaha!!
around 8am: I saw this in our NCAE test booklet.. Shhhh.. hehehe..
"Happiness is one subject everyone thinks about but few seem to understand. Some people gain and keep it others momentarily grasp it, then lose it. A few never experience it at all. Yet, however elusive happiness maybe, it is attainable no matter how miserable you may have in the past."
It caught my attention! haha.. ^__^
Jan 16,2007
8pm: I arrived home. I didn't eat but I went straight to my bedroom. I opened my pc and proceeded to my blog. Lay out mode!!!!
10:35pm I was about to save my new layout when I accidentally pressed the "Clear edits" button! "waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" but I didn't stop there. because.."Para sa kanya toh"
January 17, 2007
12:35am: Tada!! After some irritating soundz from my brother "ZZZzzzzzz.." I finished the new lay out of my blog. It's simple but I really felt happy and satisfied.
"Ayan sa wakas, mapupuntahan na ni Abychu ung blog ko!"
Hope you like it! wahahaha!!
around 8am: I saw this in our NCAE test booklet.. Shhhh.. hehehe..
"Happiness is one subject everyone thinks about but few seem to understand. Some people gain and keep it others momentarily grasp it, then lose it. A few never experience it at all. Yet, however elusive happiness maybe, it is attainable no matter how miserable you may have in the past."
It caught my attention! haha.. ^__^
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Crazy Frog!
Crazy Frog!
Wahaha!What a day!
It's like everything was turned upside down
or is it just because I'm so tired because of my portfolio.. hahaha..
Last night,
I was doing my portfolio when suddenly something came.
haha.. Laughing, I continued writing my reflections for Filipino.
Miguel and Angelo kept on telling me things that I can't tell in this blog. Anyway, they gave me an advice that helped me alot. We even talked about the movie "A Walk to Remember"
Why? because we were talking about respect and humility when it comes to guys.
Enough of that! ^___^
After our long talk, I noticed that it was already 11 so I continued writing my reflections. I noticed that it was already 2am and I was not yet finished. "Come on.."
I need to pass that portfolio so I decided to be late in class.
"Napasa ko!" I was so happy because I made it on time..
(thank you Matthew Reyes of IV-Franklin) He helped me in my portfolio ( he asked for a puncher in the guidance office)
Tired, after I reported in social, we asked our teacher if we could rest and she agreed.
"Shhhhhhhh.....zzzzzzzz" We didn't have our Comsci but we had our f.m. and music.
Sarah informed me that the upcat results were already out. I told Bea and Jay Mark and I attended my class.
6pm.. "Jaymark!!! Nasan ka na?! waaah!!" I thought he left me. Miguel told me that they went to the mall. I called and my bes answered... "Nasan na kayo? Bakit niyo ko iniwan? Hindi ganun si Jaymark! huhuhuhu.." My bes said so many things but assumed that I was already shouting. "hindi ako galit sau, kay Jaymark! kay jaymark!"
Some choir members approached us and kuya Kj and Jay V came. They stayed with me until Jay Mark came.
"Galit siya, iniwan niya bag niya sakin, nandito ata wallet niya" he told me.
I asked why she got mad and he told me everything.
"Hindi nga ako galit! and hindi ako sumisigaw.. like nasa labas ako ng masci.. ibang fone gamit ko.. mahina reception and talagang malakas boses ko..kanina pa dahil nagkakantahan kami ng mga choir"
He told me that she got upset because I got mad because of Jay mark.
I laughed... so hard.....
Hmm.. not because she got mad at me, No!, but because the reason that we fought over Jay Mark, a guy..
WAHAHAHA! "So anu feeling ng pinagaawayan ng dalawang babae? Baka lumaki ulo mo niyan"
*Speechless* he smiled "hindi naman eh"
I remember a promise..
It was made when we were still in gradeschool.
We will never fight just because of someone..
It made me smile but also disturbed because we were not really fighting because we like the same person but it was just a misunderstanding.
but the fact still remains..
we fought because of Jay Mark..
hehehe.. katuwa naman.. he was just standing there..
Mas mahal ko pa rin si Bea over everyone else noh!! hehe.. cge.. ^___^
Sunday, January 14, 2007
1st monthsary
My 1st monthsary!!
Wow! nakaisang buwan na ang blog na ito!
Hindi ko akalain na sisipagin akong magsulat sa kabila ng napakaraming gawain sa paaralan. Ako'y umaasa na mapagpapatuloy ko ito hanggang sa susunod na taon. Kadalasan, sinisipag lamang ang isang tao magsulat pag siya'y malungkot, sawi o di kaya'y may problema sa iba't ibang aspeto ng buhay.
Bakit?
Sapagkat napakadali ihayag ang damdamin lalo pa kung kanya itong nararamdaman sa mismong oras na iyon.
Sino ba ang hindi?
Wow! nakaisang buwan na ang blog na ito!
Hindi ko akalain na sisipagin akong magsulat sa kabila ng napakaraming gawain sa paaralan. Ako'y umaasa na mapagpapatuloy ko ito hanggang sa susunod na taon. Kadalasan, sinisipag lamang ang isang tao magsulat pag siya'y malungkot, sawi o di kaya'y may problema sa iba't ibang aspeto ng buhay.
Bakit?
Sapagkat napakadali ihayag ang damdamin lalo pa kung kanya itong nararamdaman sa mismong oras na iyon.
Sino ba ang hindi?
Hindi ba ito ay karaniwan lamang sa kabataang tulad natin? Sino ba ang hindi nahuhulog sa isang tao? Sino ba ang may walang problema? Sino ba ang hindi nakararanas ng pagkalungkot o pagkasaya?
Doon tayo naiba sa lahat,kaya nga tayo tinawag na tao, diba? (hehe..)
Sa dinami dami ng sasabihin bakit damdamin pa?
Sapagkat isa iyon sa mga bagay na naiintindihan ng lahat. Ito ang pinakamadaling paksa na maaaring isulat. Kaya ninuman makasulat nito sa isang iglap.
Pag-ibig ba ang karaniwang isinusulat?
OO at hindi, sapagkat napakaraming uri ng emosyon ang maaaring isulat ng bawat isa. Ngunit ito ay hindi nawawala. May mga taong tanging kasawian at kalungkutan lamang ang isinusulat nila ang iba naman ay pag may nangyaring kakaiba sa araw nila.
Kaya hindi lamang emosyon ang pwedeng isulat?
OO, marami pang maaring isulat! Ito ay iyong salamin. Kahit ano ay pwede! Manunulat ka man o hindi kung isasapuso mo ang iyong ginagawa ay siguradong maganda ang kalalabasan ng iyong likha. Malay mo, iyo itong madala kahit ikaw ay nasa loob ng klase pa!
Happy Monthsary ulit sa akin blog! *Hugz*
Friday, January 12, 2007
Bowling Day!
Sa Aking Paglalakad
Dapat nga hindi ito natuloy ngayon
Sa susunod na linggo ay NCAE na
Masaya naman!
Einstein.....
I miss Burbank!!
Super tagal na dapat ito kaso dahil talagang busy eh ngayon na lamang natuloy.
Hmm kaunti lang kami, bakit?
dahil kahit ngayon ay busy pa rin ang lahat
Humanities, cinematography, projects, parties, etc..
Nakakahinayang ngunit hindi ko naman sila masisi dahil talagang kailangan.
Dapat nga hindi ito natuloy ngayon
Kaso pag napostponed nanaman ay
impossible na ito matuloy.
Sa susunod na linggo ay NCAE na
tapos periodic test
tapos intrams
at prom
araw araw may gagawin
syempre may mga projects din yan
kaya marapat nang maituloy ngayon ang lakad
Masaya naman!
Nagkwentuhan kami sa Aunt Anne's (tma ba?)
nagbowling din kami sa Rob!
Ang saya pala!!!
Naglaban pa ngunit lagi kaming natatalo hehe...
pero natuto ako ha!
halatang matagal nkong hindi naglalaro
mahilig kasi yung mga kaibigan kong maglaro ng bowling noong kami ay nasa elementarya pa lamang.
Humabol si ralph at umalis naman si Royce. Sayang at hindi siya nakasama sa aming picture taking.
Sana ay maulit ito at sana ay mas maraming pumunta
Teka! nilibre pala kami ni Katz! Salamat!
Dumaan din pala sina Diana at Joco sa Alley.. hehe
Einstein.....
Marami nang namomoblema sa prom
may nagyayaan, kwentuhan at nagbabasa ng mga magazines ukol dito.
Halos wala nang nakikinig sa klase. Nararamdaman mo na talagang malapit nang matapos ang taon. Wala kaming Comsci ngunit nagkaroon naman kami ng open forum. Ayos lang siya kaso hindi kami kumpleto. Kung tutuusin ay hindi na ako masyadong apektado sa mga nangyayari ngunit sadyang marami pa ang hindi nakakawala. Tanging naiisip ko lang ay hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin nanatahimik ang kanilang mga loob.
Sana sa pagtapos ng buwan na ito ay matapos na ang lahat upang tanging magagandang alaala na lamang ang mabubuo ng aming pangkat.
possibilities of true love
The Possibilities of True Love
I am a dreamer.
I am a dreamer.
What is true love? I thought it was just a fantasy when people talk about it. I never believe such thing. Every time I hear fancy gossips from girls about such matter, I laugh. Every time I join the boys, we usually end up in a debate. Love is just for dreamers but I also live in reality.
If it comes to Love, many speak of doing the impossible. “Till death do us part,” couples always say. A man and wife, their hearts will beat as one and live happily ever after. That is always the ending but what happens if Love crosses its boundaries? Are you willing to give up everything?
I grew up and learned how to love. I may be an amateur if it comes to this matter but my I believe that my definition of love is no different from the others. It is by the law of God and the will of man. Love conquers all. It causes eternal happiness. It is selfless and infinite. It never hurts nor causes sorrow to anyone. It is bestowed to us to share and grow as God’s children. It never destroys but builds infinite possibilities. I may be a dreamer but I know the true meaning of love.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Unforgettable Essay
My Unforgettable Essay of 2006
What a year!!
Many things happened this year
True, life is like a wheel and I can see how my life is changing. Fast.
First, I want to share my essay in Filipino
Gawain blg. II, November 20,2006 (past na siya! )
(I was able to pass this essay on time ^___^)
I want to share this essay because the message that our teacher wrote in my paper was different from what she always writes.
“Maganda ang pagkakabuo ng iyong gawain" (oowwss? Hndi nga? pero..hmm.. normal na.. sentence..) "Masining! Linangin ang kakayahan sa pagsulat! "(wow! Pwede na pla akong mag lathalain?! hahaha)
hahaha! I smiled and can’t believe that our teacher told me that.
I’m not confident in writing essays anymore because I know many are better than me.
(and talagang bilib ako sa kanila! I like reading essays than writing one.. hehe..)
But this was not the main reason why I smiled..
It’s because that essay is what I hate most. Funny, I was really bitter when I wrote that yet, it was my best essay according to my teacher.. hahaha…
Dahil, tagalog naman itong essay ay magtatagalog nako..
Share ko ung ibang part ng essay.. may mga hindi ako sinama, dahil mahaba and secret nmin un ni ma’am.. hehe.. Super edited na yan.. and short cut.. medyo.. harsh na kc ung iba.. I think..
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What a year!!
Many things happened this year
True, life is like a wheel and I can see how my life is changing. Fast.
First, I want to share my essay in Filipino
Gawain blg. II, November 20,2006 (past na siya! )
(I was able to pass this essay on time ^___^)
I want to share this essay because the message that our teacher wrote in my paper was different from what she always writes.
“Maganda ang pagkakabuo ng iyong gawain" (oowwss? Hndi nga? pero..hmm.. normal na.. sentence..) "Masining! Linangin ang kakayahan sa pagsulat! "(wow! Pwede na pla akong mag lathalain?! hahaha)
hahaha! I smiled and can’t believe that our teacher told me that.
I’m not confident in writing essays anymore because I know many are better than me.
(and talagang bilib ako sa kanila! I like reading essays than writing one.. hehe..)
But this was not the main reason why I smiled..
It’s because that essay is what I hate most. Funny, I was really bitter when I wrote that yet, it was my best essay according to my teacher.. hahaha…
Dahil, tagalog naman itong essay ay magtatagalog nako..
Share ko ung ibang part ng essay.. may mga hindi ako sinama, dahil mahaba and secret nmin un ni ma’am.. hehe.. Super edited na yan.. and short cut.. medyo.. harsh na kc ung iba.. I think..
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Gera ng Katahimikan
Ako ay malimit na tumatakas. Nagtatago sa likod ng mga ngiti at papuri ng mga tao. Kilala ng karamihan bilang isang matapang na babae. Wala daw kinikilingan, doon sila nagkamali.
Ano ba ang mayroon sa akin upang mapunta sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon? Ilang taon din akong nagtago sa kahon ng pag-iisa bago ko nakilala ang tunay kong sarili. Sipag at tiyaga ang naging puhunan ko para makuha ko ang tiwala ng lahat. Laking pasasalamat ko sa aking mga magulang at pinalaki nila ako ng tama at dahil dito ay maganda ang naging buhay ko sa labas ng aming tahanan. Maganda nga ba? Wala akong hihilingin pa. Palagi akong nagpapasalamat sa Diyos dahil ibinigay Niya sa akin ang lahat at bilang ganti ay tinutulungan ko lahat ng nangangailangan. Minsan ay iniisip ko kung bakit ako walang suliranin. Iyon ang pagkakamali ko.
Nasabi ninyo na ba sa inyong sarili ang mga salitang ito? “Tinutulungan ko ang lahat sa aking makakaya at kung sino pa ang tinuturing kaibigan ay siya pang magtataksil sa akin?” Hindi ko inasahang masasabi ko iyon sa aking sarili. Tunay ngang mahirap maging mabait. “Bakit ito ang sinukli niya sa kabaitang ipinakita ko sa kanya?” Malaking panghihinayang at pagsisisi ang aking naramdaman. Ilang araw ako hindi nakatulog sa kaiisip kung bakit nangyari sa akin ito dahil inalay ko ang buong buhay ko sa aking mga kaibigan pero sa huli, ang makapagbabagsak lang pala sa akin ay ang mga “itinuturing” kong kaibigan.
Isang pagkakamali ang lahat. Hindi ako tulad ng iba nakikipag-away o nagsisigawan. Isang araw, hindi ako nagsalita o umimik. Inaamin kong hindi ako matapang tulad nang iniisip ng karamihan sa akin. Ako ay duwag at tinatago ang lungkot at sakit sa likod ng aking mga ngiti at gawain. Hindi talaga ako ang taong inaasahan ng lahat. Sadyang magaling lang akong magtago sa huwad na katotohanan. Ito ang matatawag niyong tahimik na digmaan. Ito ay nakamamatay at ito marahil ang pinakamasakit sa lahat ng alitan. Gusto ko matikman nila ang poot at lungkot ko sa pamamagitan ng pananahimik. Para sa akin, ito ang pinakamasakit sa lahat.
“Magaling akong tumakas. Kaduwagan, oo alam ko, ngunit kung ito ang makapaglalayo sa akin sa realidad ay aalis ako…”
Ang aking katahimikan at ang aking matatamis na ngiti ang ipambabati ko upang kanyang malasap ang poot na tila naiipon sa aking katawan. Ito marahil ang pinakamasakit na hidwaan. Hindi ko alam kung kailan babalik ang salitang pagpapatawad sa aking bokabularyo pero sa ngayon ito ang laman ng puso’t isipan ko. Alam kong isa lamang itong hamon sa aking pagkatao. Napasabak ako sa gera ng katahimikan. Hanggang kailan kaya ako lalaban?
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Ako ay malimit na tumatakas. Nagtatago sa likod ng mga ngiti at papuri ng mga tao. Kilala ng karamihan bilang isang matapang na babae. Wala daw kinikilingan, doon sila nagkamali.
Ano ba ang mayroon sa akin upang mapunta sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon? Ilang taon din akong nagtago sa kahon ng pag-iisa bago ko nakilala ang tunay kong sarili. Sipag at tiyaga ang naging puhunan ko para makuha ko ang tiwala ng lahat. Laking pasasalamat ko sa aking mga magulang at pinalaki nila ako ng tama at dahil dito ay maganda ang naging buhay ko sa labas ng aming tahanan. Maganda nga ba? Wala akong hihilingin pa. Palagi akong nagpapasalamat sa Diyos dahil ibinigay Niya sa akin ang lahat at bilang ganti ay tinutulungan ko lahat ng nangangailangan. Minsan ay iniisip ko kung bakit ako walang suliranin. Iyon ang pagkakamali ko.
Nasabi ninyo na ba sa inyong sarili ang mga salitang ito? “Tinutulungan ko ang lahat sa aking makakaya at kung sino pa ang tinuturing kaibigan ay siya pang magtataksil sa akin?” Hindi ko inasahang masasabi ko iyon sa aking sarili. Tunay ngang mahirap maging mabait. “Bakit ito ang sinukli niya sa kabaitang ipinakita ko sa kanya?” Malaking panghihinayang at pagsisisi ang aking naramdaman. Ilang araw ako hindi nakatulog sa kaiisip kung bakit nangyari sa akin ito dahil inalay ko ang buong buhay ko sa aking mga kaibigan pero sa huli, ang makapagbabagsak lang pala sa akin ay ang mga “itinuturing” kong kaibigan.
Isang pagkakamali ang lahat. Hindi ako tulad ng iba nakikipag-away o nagsisigawan. Isang araw, hindi ako nagsalita o umimik. Inaamin kong hindi ako matapang tulad nang iniisip ng karamihan sa akin. Ako ay duwag at tinatago ang lungkot at sakit sa likod ng aking mga ngiti at gawain. Hindi talaga ako ang taong inaasahan ng lahat. Sadyang magaling lang akong magtago sa huwad na katotohanan. Ito ang matatawag niyong tahimik na digmaan. Ito ay nakamamatay at ito marahil ang pinakamasakit sa lahat ng alitan. Gusto ko matikman nila ang poot at lungkot ko sa pamamagitan ng pananahimik. Para sa akin, ito ang pinakamasakit sa lahat.
“Magaling akong tumakas. Kaduwagan, oo alam ko, ngunit kung ito ang makapaglalayo sa akin sa realidad ay aalis ako…”
Ang aking katahimikan at ang aking matatamis na ngiti ang ipambabati ko upang kanyang malasap ang poot na tila naiipon sa aking katawan. Ito marahil ang pinakamasakit na hidwaan. Hindi ko alam kung kailan babalik ang salitang pagpapatawad sa aking bokabularyo pero sa ngayon ito ang laman ng puso’t isipan ko. Alam kong isa lamang itong hamon sa aking pagkatao. Napasabak ako sa gera ng katahimikan. Hanggang kailan kaya ako lalaban?
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Good luck nalang sa mga magbabasa nyan. Hehehe..
Cge po! Till here na muna! ^_______________^
Cge po! Till here na muna! ^_______________^
