Social Contract
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
The path
Choosing this Path
I am out of the ordinary.
I am in search of an adventure
I am in despair
I want to find myself.
Sadness, it creeps inside my heart. It aches and slowly breaks me into pieces.
Remorse, it hinders me from living anew.
Acceptance, it kills me even by just thinking about it.
Pity, it stops me from moving on.
Faith, it makes me believe that there is still a chance, a hope.
God does miracles. He is working in my life. I know that he gave me these challenges for me to be stronger.
But….
Why is there a rope tied in my hand that stops me from walking the path?
Is this the work of the devil?
Every time I turn back, I see the faces that I left in oblivion. They don’t deserve to be hurt but I don’t want to return and reach out for I know that I’ll surely perish to nothingness. Again.
The wind brushes to my cheek as I walk to the path. I feel the warm welcome of my new life as I gaze the rising sun. It seems like it was waiting for me all along.
I am smiling…. Again.
I need to let go of the rope, but it’s too tight.Can somebody please untie it for me?
I am out of the ordinary.
I am in search of an adventure
I am in despair
I want to find myself.
Sadness, it creeps inside my heart. It aches and slowly breaks me into pieces.
Remorse, it hinders me from living anew.
Acceptance, it kills me even by just thinking about it.
Pity, it stops me from moving on.
Faith, it makes me believe that there is still a chance, a hope.
God does miracles. He is working in my life. I know that he gave me these challenges for me to be stronger.
But….
Why is there a rope tied in my hand that stops me from walking the path?
Is this the work of the devil?
Every time I turn back, I see the faces that I left in oblivion. They don’t deserve to be hurt but I don’t want to return and reach out for I know that I’ll surely perish to nothingness. Again.
The wind brushes to my cheek as I walk to the path. I feel the warm welcome of my new life as I gaze the rising sun. It seems like it was waiting for me all along.
I am smiling…. Again.
I need to let go of the rope, but it’s too tight.Can somebody please untie it for me?
Sunday, December 17, 2006
a step back in time
887 tickets
Yesterday, I attended our practice to make up for my absence last Friday. (I attended journalism) Many were still absent and our teacher was very disappointed. The sopranos can’t hit the right notes because most of us were already exhausted. Many already lost their voices and Janine & I were also going to that stage. By afternoon nobody returned. I was the only senior sop 2 left so ma’am really noticed how flat my voice was. I was ashamed because I can’t do anything about it. It was really throaty.
We finished early and went to Rob. Ma’am came with us. She went shopping (we went with her). It was really funny because we found out that ma’am can shop in just 30mins. We went to Kamera world and had a studio pic. Then we ate at Greenwich. We parted ways but Julius and I stayed and went window shopping. After some time, we went to G-box and played. For 2 hrs we were able to gather 887 tickets! Julius decided to give me a stuffed toy! It was really cute and I named it K.J. (Kj and Julius) It was really fun because I felt that I was a kid again and I kept on buying tokens for that game.. hehe..
Today, I went to a bible study at tetz house. The topic was about Grace and Making Decisions. I learned a lot from the session though it was really sad because I was with my friends when I last went there.
I went to Glorietta and had my Christmas shopping. I bought my Christmas attire and bought some presents for my friends. My next Christmas shopping will be on Tues or Wed because I didn’t finish shopping today.
Meowsie! ^______^
Yesterday, I attended our practice to make up for my absence last Friday. (I attended journalism) Many were still absent and our teacher was very disappointed. The sopranos can’t hit the right notes because most of us were already exhausted. Many already lost their voices and Janine & I were also going to that stage. By afternoon nobody returned. I was the only senior sop 2 left so ma’am really noticed how flat my voice was. I was ashamed because I can’t do anything about it. It was really throaty.
We finished early and went to Rob. Ma’am came with us. She went shopping (we went with her). It was really funny because we found out that ma’am can shop in just 30mins. We went to Kamera world and had a studio pic. Then we ate at Greenwich. We parted ways but Julius and I stayed and went window shopping. After some time, we went to G-box and played. For 2 hrs we were able to gather 887 tickets! Julius decided to give me a stuffed toy! It was really cute and I named it K.J. (Kj and Julius) It was really fun because I felt that I was a kid again and I kept on buying tokens for that game.. hehe..
Today, I went to a bible study at tetz house. The topic was about Grace and Making Decisions. I learned a lot from the session though it was really sad because I was with my friends when I last went there.
I went to Glorietta and had my Christmas shopping. I bought my Christmas attire and bought some presents for my friends. My next Christmas shopping will be on Tues or Wed because I didn’t finish shopping today.
Meowsie! ^______^
Friday, December 15, 2006
My lifetime Commitment
Time sure flies!
I’m sure that one day, you’ll just realize that you already have your diploma and ready to go to College.
How ironic that we used to say,
“Nakakasawa nman”
“Palagi nalang ganito”
but these are the memories that you’ll carry when you leave Masci.
As for me, I want to graduate NOW. I’m not bitter but so many things happened that pushed me to hate going to school. I always say “Bakit sa akin pa? Ako nanaman, lagi nalang” I’m tired of accepting and fixing myself to be ok. I came to the point that I wished not to wake up anymore. God didn’t answer. I realized that what I’m asking is too much. I don’t deserve that wish.
Anyway, he gave me an alternative. He gave me a purpose. He opened my eyes to more opportunities and certainties. I learned that I can have a new world; I can have a new prospective in life. I can be happy even if I lost something or someone.
I used to have a center of my universe and I’ve sacrificed so much to make everything fine. I thought I could be happy if I put so much effort on it. It didn’t turn out well.
I was a captive of my own emotions. I was a prisoner of my own world. I thought I could make everybody happy if I look happy. It was the biggest mistake I ever did.
God was so kind that he gave me friends who didn’t leave me. Also, he sent new and even old friends to help me find the light. I feel special because I never felt that I was alone. God made each day an adventure for me. He helped me build new friendships and even gave “older brothers” to be with me every time I feel down. Each day became a memorable day that I’ll treasure forever.
No more regrets and no more bitterness. I thank God that he sent people to guide me and clothed me with kindness and generosity. Don’t worry, I will return the favor and I’ll follow you. I know that I will never get lost.
Time sure flies, but I’ll make sure that I’ll live each day with hope and courage. I’ll do my best to face each morning with a smile. ^___^
I’m sure that one day, you’ll just realize that you already have your diploma and ready to go to College.
How ironic that we used to say,
“Nakakasawa nman”
“Palagi nalang ganito”
but these are the memories that you’ll carry when you leave Masci.
As for me, I want to graduate NOW. I’m not bitter but so many things happened that pushed me to hate going to school. I always say “Bakit sa akin pa? Ako nanaman, lagi nalang” I’m tired of accepting and fixing myself to be ok. I came to the point that I wished not to wake up anymore. God didn’t answer. I realized that what I’m asking is too much. I don’t deserve that wish.
Anyway, he gave me an alternative. He gave me a purpose. He opened my eyes to more opportunities and certainties. I learned that I can have a new world; I can have a new prospective in life. I can be happy even if I lost something or someone.
I used to have a center of my universe and I’ve sacrificed so much to make everything fine. I thought I could be happy if I put so much effort on it. It didn’t turn out well.
I was a captive of my own emotions. I was a prisoner of my own world. I thought I could make everybody happy if I look happy. It was the biggest mistake I ever did.
God was so kind that he gave me friends who didn’t leave me. Also, he sent new and even old friends to help me find the light. I feel special because I never felt that I was alone. God made each day an adventure for me. He helped me build new friendships and even gave “older brothers” to be with me every time I feel down. Each day became a memorable day that I’ll treasure forever.
No more regrets and no more bitterness. I thank God that he sent people to guide me and clothed me with kindness and generosity. Don’t worry, I will return the favor and I’ll follow you. I know that I will never get lost.
Time sure flies, but I’ll make sure that I’ll live each day with hope and courage. I’ll do my best to face each morning with a smile. ^___^
