Social Contract

Thursday, May 31, 2007

LAPTOP

New Laptop!! Huhuhuhu!
after so many years of dreaming about my own computer!
My own! wahahaha!
Love you momsi at dadi!! woooooooohhhhhhhoooooooo!
posted by "hean" at 5/31/2007 10:41:00 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

rain

The rain is pouring. The sky is dark and gloomy. Time to bid summer goodbye.

I'm tired.
Tired of the colorful flowers
Tired of the intense heat
Tired of the bright sun
Tired of everything around me

I just turned 18 but it seems age doesn't matter if it comes to me.
I'm trying hard to look like one but an unknown force is depriving me from attaining this goal.
I don't think I'm ready. Really, I'm not yet ready.
There are things that I still don't understand. I still have plenty of insecurities.
I'm still dependent and my friends are still protective.
Can I not learn to stand alone?
Am I too weak to be alone?

Yes...
Yes..

I'm fickle.. I'm weak..
I'm selfish..I'm too selfish..
I still can't consider other people's feelings..
I get what I want
Truly.. I'm a spoiled brat! Arggh!
If there's someone out there who could help me...
please... call me.. I really need help..
Those who accepted me already.. thank you!
***stop***
posted by "hean" at 5/29/2007 08:25:00 PM 0 comments

Sunday, May 27, 2007

debut nA!

debut na!


Waw! Ang kaarawan ni Bea malamang ang “pinaka” nakakapagod na handaang napuntahan ko.
Sa loob ng dalawang linggo ay dumalo ako sa mga praktis niya. Nagpapasalamat ako at si Jay Mark ang naging kasama ko at napawi lahat ng pagod ko. Sa mga araw na iyon ko nakita muli sina abygaile almoite at jk kaya masaya rin naman talaga.

Nalaman kong 98 pala kami sa ballroom dancing ni Jay Mark noong third year kaya pala gusto ko siyang kapartner pag sayawan.. (naklimutan ko na ang dahilan.. akala ko noon dahil magaling lang siya manamit...haha) joke lang! Nakakapagod ang mga araw subalit naging masaya naman dahil para ito sa kaarawan ng aking matalik na kaibigan.

Akala ko pa naman ay pagkatapos ng mga ensayo ay tapos na.. huhuhuhu
May mga kanta pa pala.. Kaya naman minadali ko ang mga kanta.. praktis dito.. praktis doon.. away dito.. away doon... Buti na lamang ay natapos na lahat sa isang gabi!

Nakatutuwa dahil sa unang pagkakataon ay may sumamang lalaki sa amin nina tetang at chrissy sa parlor.... haha.. hulaan kung sino!! si kuya allan! hay.. ayaw pala ng kuya.. ahihi..Nakatutuwa dahil bukod sa nangyari ay sa kanya pa sila kumampi! Akalain mo yun? Hay, umaatake nanaman pagkaisip bata ko.
Masaya at maayos ang programa! Nakasama ko pa an mga kabarkada! Madalang kasi kami mabuo! =)

Maayos naman ang gabi ngunit hindi ko masyado nagustuhan ang pagtatapos nito.
Hay.. kailan ba ako matututo?
posted by "hean" at 5/27/2007 09:42:00 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Bea!

me and my bes


A Piece of My Story

“Gusto mo?”
12 years has passed and I’ve never forgotten the words she often says. Her mother is a good homemaker that’s why she always shares her “baon” with me. During dismissal, I usually sit at the back of the bus while she still runs wild in our school. With her long braided hair, she dances, smiles and laughs.

With these qualities…
We became complete opposites,
With these qualities…
We became best of friends.

“Ako na kasi sa harapan, sa susunod ikaw naman.” We often trade places in our line back in grade 2. We have the same height and “almost” same eyes but quite different posture and weight. I was quite the chubby one and she is the future “cheer leader” in class. After that year, we parted ways and never became classmates in grade school.

We grew..
We met other people
We survived..

“Hi” This was left. A simple greeting every time we meet at the corridors. Time drifted us apart. My friends and her friends made us very busy to hang out with each other.
We lived in different worlds.
Tick… Tick…tick…

“Magtest ka sa Masci!” We both passed.. and well.. You know the rest!

HAPPY B-DAY BEA!
posted by "hean" at 5/22/2007 10:15:00 PM 0 comments

L

L!! noooooooooo!

I just watched episode 25 when L died! I can’t believe he’s dead! It’s my first time to like an anime character and it’s so painful to see him die just like that!
Ryuugi!! Nooooooo!!

I attended my gym class today and because of my excitement I rushed to one of the machines and got myself sprained!! The horror!! The trainers came to my aid and there was this trainer who is really cute.. ehem…. He got the ice and massaged my foot. He is really tall and can carry all the weights in any machine. My first question in mind if he’s um……… hehe because my counselor told me that many male customers complain because …. Just go to the gym and mingle with the “real” guys. He seems real to me! Haha. He became my lil bro’s personal trainer that’s why I’ll be seeing more of him from now on. My counselor became my personal trainer and she looks great and fit! Another thing that made me turn on was he persuaded me to join a pageant next summer and not to worry because my trainer and my program plus my looks “daw” can make me fit to join that event. Haha… I’m sure he’s just flattering me but I said “opo” many times just to satisfy him. I think he’s already in his mid 20s but I’m sure his kind and friendly approach could make any customer like him.

Well that goes for my lil bro’s trainer, my successful program and my injured foot!
posted by "hean" at 5/22/2007 09:47:00 PM 0 comments

Monday, May 21, 2007

3 wks to go

3 weeks to go!!

This year’s summer is my busiest summer of all!
1st time pa hindi nag enroll ng summer classes
1st time na araw araw nasa labas
1st time na hindi nagswimming sa bday
1st time sumama sa probinsya ng hindi kasama ang momsi at c adding

Hmm.. maraming first time.. pero ang punto ko.. ito ang unang beses na hindi ako pumayat ng summer.. T______T epekto yata nang hindi paglaro ng tennis o kahit anong isport. Madalas kasi sa panahon ito ako nangangayayat ng husto. Napabayaan na kasi sa kusina… hehehe..
Buti na lamang at natapos na ang kalbaryo ko sa debut. Ito pa lamang ang simula ng aking bakasyon.. Planado na ang lahat kaya kung may kokontra, tatamaan ng kidlat!

Nakalulungkot at sa Miyerkules na ang simula ng klase ng mga taga-DLSU at dahil taga roon na si Patrick at Phoebus ay mahihirapan na kaming lumakad. Para hindi malungkot ay niyaya ko sila magtennis.
“Nasa Subic ako eh” ani ni Patrick
“May pupuntahan ako” paliwanag ni Dimpey.

Ako, si Iyel, phoebus at Pj ang natira. Sa madaling salita “doubles” ang laro namin. Dumating ang lahat ng mga alas-nuwebe at tumngo na kami sa Velayo’s sport compex sa mau Domestic airport. Para masaya at hindi magastos ay gumamit na lamang kami ng isang sasakyan. Umatake ang katamaran ni Phoebus kaya hinayaan niyang c Pj ang magmaneho ng kanyang sasakyan. Nasa likod lang kami ni Iyel.

Pagkatapos ng maraming gate at kuhaan ng id sa merville ay nakalabas na kami at nasa may NAIA nang hulihin kami ng pulis. Swerving daw, malay ko ba kung ano yun at mag-aaral palang ako magmaneho, Kinuha ang lisensiya ni Pj at rehistro ng sasakyan ni phoebus. Buti na lamang at mabait ang pulis at hindi na kinuha ang mga papeles at lisensiya kaso may ticket naman kami!
Nakarating kami sa court at naglaro 6-3 ang score at kami ni Iyel ang nanalo laban kanila Phoebus. Pagkatapos ng isang oras nagreklamo na so phoebus at nagyayang pumunta na lamang sa Market Market. Naghiwalay muna kami sa bahay ko dahil kinuha ni Pj yung sasakyan niya. Kay Phoebus ako sumabay at si Iyel kay Phoebus. Nagkita kami sa gitna ng Mall at kumain sa North Park! Paboritong kainan namin ni Iyel. Si Phoebus ang taya kaya umorder ng marami si Iyel. 1k umabot ang bill pero ayos lang dahil hindi naman ako ang nagbayad! Haha!

Pumunta kami sa Olympic world pagkatapos kumain dahil may gusting bilhin si Phoebus na sapatos. Berde ang kulay para daw sa pasukan ay kakulay niya ang paaralan niya! Dun naming nakilala ang Gola. Isang bagong tatak ng sapatos.

Bumalik na kami sa parking pagkatapos. Pinangako kasi ni Phoebus na ihahatid niya ako sa gym. Nagpaalam na kami kay Pj at pumunta sa glorietta upang ibaba si Iyel. Mga alas-dos ako nakarating sa gym. =)

Simula ng program ko sa gym. Akala ko madali lang, nakakapagod pala. Nasanay kasi akong kanya kanya pag nandun at unang beses ko lang sumunod sa program dahil tumaba nga ako. Hehehe…Napawi naman ang pagdurusa ko dahil ang daing gwapo sa lugar! Lahat nakangiti pa! Hindi ko namlayan tapos na pala ang program ko.

Pumapayat ka na nga! Nageenjoy ka pa! Hehe.. dahil sa mga nangyari ay hindi ako umabot sa dentist appointment at sa practice kanila Bea. Hay..
posted by "hean" at 5/21/2007 09:30:00 PM 0 comments

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Debut!


The birthday of my dreams

It happened oh sooooooooo fast!! Finally, I’m already 18!!
Legal, cute and fabulous!! Wohooo!
(minus the “look” like 18 part)

I treated my twin cousin for a movie at G4. We watched “28 weeks later.” It was really a cool movie but before anything else…

We arrived at the mall around 10am and the movie starts at 12 so we went to Artwork and bought shirts with the same design and went to Landmark.
*Package counter

Assistant: Good morning ma’am! (Inaabot ang groceries namin)
Thei: Eiow po! Iwan lang po namin…
A: Kambal po kayo?
Thei: Umm… opo! Ayy hindi po pala! Cuz po kami..
A: oww? Mukha kasi kayong kambal, ilang taon ka na ba?
T: 18 po!
A: oww? Eh ikaw? (to my cuz)
Elieza: 13 po!
A: talaga?! Hindi po kasi halatang 18 na po kayo
(waaaaaaah! Tantrums!! Argggggghhh! *flashes a fake smile!)
T: mean niyo naman po… 18 nako eh! (still smiling)
A: sabi niyo po
T: (uupakan ko na toh.. mkaalis na nga)

*At G4 (movie house)
R-13 yung movie

Thei: 2 tickets 28 weeks later po!
Saleslady: Ilang taon na po kayo?
T: (Magrereact na sana..she was asking my cuz pala)
E: 13 po

*whew! That went well!

*At the door

Guard: Good afternoon po!! Dito po kayo sa kabila
Thei: Ayy! Hindi po cinema 2 po talaga kami..
G: ilang taon na po sila?
T: (Kainis naman talaga!!) umm.. 18 po
(May dumating na isa pang staff)
Staff: Hindi po kasi halata,, (smiling)
T: Ay ganun po ba…
That’s my 1st adventure as 18 yr old gal! Nothing change! Still perky! Ahihi…
Eniweiz, my bes Bea’s debut is coming and we have practices for her cotillion. Busy again and I REALLY need to exercise because my figure is going to critical level again. I don’t have plans to buy new set of jeans so I really need to have a diet!

My gift list!
I wanna thank those who went to my 18th b-day! I know it was so hard to attend because of the elections and stuff. I really appreciate your presence and for those who didn’t make it, It’s A ok! I understand naman eh!

50% of my gifts are stuffed toys! Aside from my 18 teddy bears, many still gave me stuffed toys! It’s so obvious that you don’t want me to grow up! Hehe..

25% gave me bags! Bags are very useful in College! They’re useful and cool! Thanks!

10% are furniture! Hmm.. They’re very useful especially for my new room with tetz!

10% are jewelries and perfumes. Gifts for ladies huh?

5% other stuff like clothes, money! Watches! Frames! Books!

(the picture Jay Mark used)



Woohoo!!
Unlike my bes I didn’t implement the “no gift no entry policy” so its ok for me. I just showed this because while I was opening my gifts (like it was Christmas)
Katz, Ayen, Camz and Rose Abi were with me!
A gift caught our attention.
I was attracted with the wrapper but there was no card in it. It was flat with a pale colored wrapper but it was designed with a butterfly. I thought it was a mirror or a frame since some one gave me a mirror. I was surprised that it was a photo mosaic of me!
I was so surprised that I smiled the whole time while looking at the smaller pictures. That’s when I concluded that it was from Jay Mark! It’s full of his pictures!
I also know that the picture he used is his favorite! I really love the photo mosaic! It was really sweet and my mom even told me to put that in my room at UP D!

I’m so excited to bring that there!! Love yah!! ARIGATO! Hugz!
We almost have the same sched naman so You’ll see me everyday.. wahaha!! Hugz again!!

posted by "hean" at 5/15/2007 08:28:00 PM 0 comments

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Watz d sched?

Watz d sched?

Wahaha… tinatamad nakong mag update.. kaya lng may nagsabi saking ol ako ng ol hindi naman nag uupdate.. huhuhu..

Eniweiz.. Schedule ko nlng para masaya

May 1:
Weeeeee!! Nakausap ko Mayor ng Narvacan, Ilocos Sur! Umm.. I mean future Vice-Mayor na kasi her husband is running for Mayor!

Uso naman sa Ilocos na buong pamilya tumatakbo sa isang bayan. At dahil Pol. Sci naman course ko ay tinanong ko kung bakit ganun.

“Iha, nasa Ilocos ka.. ganun tlga at kahit saan naman ganun” Tawa nalang ako, may point naman siya… napabuntong hininga nalang ako. Fiesta sa amin kasi, yun marahil ang dahilan kung bakit araw araw kong nakikita yung mayor namin.

Sa gabi ng pista, tulad ng nakaugalian ay kinokoronahan ang nanalong prinsesa sa aming lugar. Akala mo naman pagandahan, pero sa katunayan, sa pera lang yan lahat. Halos lahat naman ay galing abroad at tinatapon lang nila ang pera sa mga anak upang maranasan naman makoronahan kahit sa isang gabi lang.

“Saan kaya napupunta ang pera?” Syempre, tinanong ko na rin yun. Sapagkat taga London ang nanalo at 60,000php ang nalikom niyang pera sa loob lamang ng tatlong araw. Isama pa natin ang mga kalaban niya, aabutin ng 100,000php o higit pa dahil 5 ang naglabanan para sa trono. Sabi ng pinsan ko sa Kapitolyo daw napupunta lahat ng pera taon taon… Laking gulat ko dahil ang liit lang naman ng simbahan. Wala ngang aircon at kakaunti lang ang electric fan. Hindi pa kasya lahat sa loob. Ano yun? Dapat palasyo na yan ha! Napatawa nalang ako ulit. Saan talaga napupunta ang pera? Sa isang maliit na bario tulad ng sa amin ay marami nang nangyayaring kababalaghan paano pa kaya sa isang probinsyang tulad ng Ilocos? Sa buong Pilipinas?

May nangyari pang mala-telenobelang eksena sa gabi ng pista. Bukod sa pagdating ng Mayor ay may nagsaksakan pa sa gitna ng pista! Mga 4 na metro lang ang layo ko sa dalawang nagaaway at kitang kita ko ang sugat na natamo ng isang lasenggo. Inisip ko nalang pulang pintura ang nakikita ko para hindi ako matakot kaso yung isa may hawak na baril kaya napatakbo ako pero syempre nakatingin parin.. journalist ata toh! Haha..

Kung sinasabi sa mga dyaryo na wala ng jueteng ay talagang hindi ako naniniwala. Nawala lang naman dahil hindi na nakatuon ang pansin ng gobyerno at nakalimutan na ito ipaglaban ng oposisyon dati nangangampanya sila. Sa murang edad, nasasaksihan ko ang mga maling gawain, imposible namang hindi ito nakikita ng mga nakatatanda sa akin, diba? Wala lang kasing pakialam… Lahat takot…

Nakalulungkot isipin na tuwing panahon ng eleksyon, kay raming anumalyang nagaganap. Hindi raw maiiwasan ito, hindi nga ba? Marami na ang nawawalan ng pag-asa sa ating bayan. Dahilan nila, pare pareho lang naman lahat ng kandedato. Lahat sila kurakot, walang malinis, walang marangal. Tuwing naiisip ko toh ay nawawalan nako ng gana bumoto.

Pero sana hindi ako mawalan ng pag-asa… Go Pol Sci!! =)
posted by "hean" at 5/10/2007 11:45:00 AM 0 comments

I woke up one morning and saw the sun shining brightly at me. See? This is life. I must learn to move on, take the risk and be happy. I turned back and saw the dark past..."Hey, Its miserable in here, do you want to come with me?"

would i dare go back?

Most of us realize that we love someone just because she/he's already gone...
that's wrong..
do learn from mistakes...

admirers & fans.. don't think this is for u..
haha =)

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