Social Contract

The rain is pouring. The sky is dark and gloomy. Time to bid summer goodbye.

I'm tired.
Tired of the colorful flowers
Tired of the intense heat
Tired of the bright sun
Tired of everything around me

I just turned 18 but it seems age doesn't matter if it comes to me.
I'm trying hard to look like one but an unknown force is depriving me from attaining this goal.
I don't think I'm ready. Really, I'm not yet ready.
There are things that I still don't understand. I still have plenty of insecurities.
I'm still dependent and my friends are still protective.
Can I not learn to stand alone?
Am I too weak to be alone?

Yes...
Yes..

I'm fickle.. I'm weak..
I'm selfish..I'm too selfish..
I still can't consider other people's feelings..
I get what I want
Truly.. I'm a spoiled brat! Arggh!
If there's someone out there who could help me...
please... call me.. I really need help..
Those who accepted me already.. thank you!
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