Social Contract
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Biglaan
Biglaan
by 6 Cycle Mind
Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko,
Nang sabihin mong wag na lang.
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko,
Kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat.
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari,
at sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain,
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
by 6 Cycle Mind
Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko,
Nang sabihin mong wag na lang.
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko,
Kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat.
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari,
at sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain,
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing
Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss
Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
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Umm.. Happy Monthsary Blog!! umm.. 3rd Blog-sary.. ahihi.. ^___^
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Teddy Bear
Kristofer
When I was about 3 yrs old my daddy gave me this chocolate colored teddy bear. It was kind of special because he bought it abroad and was one of the oldest collections of Steiff Company. The scarf attached to it was color blue with gold lining. At its knot was an opal pin. I really liked it because my dad told me that opal is my birthstone. I treasured Kristofer since then.
I carried Kristofer everywhere. I always hug him at night. I play with him at recess and we play tea party at lunch. He was my best friend. Every time my teacher scolded me, I hugged Kristofer tighter. I told my problems to him even if he doesn’t talk. It always made me feel better talking to him.
“He was my brother, my confidant, my bestfriend…”
Life was never boring for Kristofer was more than enough.
I was in the 3rd grade when I met Cristina. She usually wears a zillion hair clips and a weird pair of glasses. She was quiet and shy. One day I approached her and asked her why.
That was the start of our friendship…
Kristofer, Cristina and I play tea party and share secrets together. “She” became a part of our family.
Our classmates were always fond of teasing Cristina. She always cries because of this. She even hides in our Art closet most of the time. That made me sad for her. I don’t know how to make her feel better. I sat on my chair and I saw Kristofer staring at me. Its like his marble eyes were trying to tell me something. Pity?
Life was never boring for Kristofer was more than enough.
I was in the 3rd grade when I met Cristina. She usually wears a zillion hair clips and a weird pair of glasses. She was quiet and shy. One day I approached her and asked her why.
That was the start of our friendship…
Kristofer, Cristina and I play tea party and share secrets together. “She” became a part of our family.
Our classmates were always fond of teasing Cristina. She always cries because of this. She even hides in our Art closet most of the time. That made me sad for her. I don’t know how to make her feel better. I sat on my chair and I saw Kristofer staring at me. Its like his marble eyes were trying to tell me something. Pity?
“This is kind of risky, Kristofer” I whispered.
“But…”
At the end of the day, I walked with Cristina like we usually do.
“Cristina, you can borrow Kristofer for a while.”
“You sure?”
“Yeah, I ‘m sure”
I saw her sad eyes turned bright. It made me feel happy. I felt that I did something really nice. She hugged him tight as we walk.
Two weeks passed….. 4weeks…. 2 months….
She didn’t return him.
I don’t know why I can’t ask her about Kristofer.
“Maybe, she still needs him.”
School year was almost over but still she didn’t return Kristofer. This time I confronted her.
“Can you please return him?”
“I thought you already gave it to me!”
“I did not!”
“I don’t want to return him anymore. He is my best friend.”
I couldn’t argue…
Silence….
I wanted to shout at her but nothing went out. I froze while she turned away. We didn’t talk to each other since then. I cried every night thinking that he will never return. Nothing can please me. I stayed at my room the whole summer break.
My dad gave me another teddy bear. He was like Kristofer but better. Aside from its scarf was a suitcase filled with its clothes. I hugged it. It has the same softness but the feeling was very different. Something was missing for he is not Kristofer.
Two years already passed. I still miss him. I long for him. I miss my bestfriend, my teddy.
“But…”
At the end of the day, I walked with Cristina like we usually do.
“Cristina, you can borrow Kristofer for a while.”
“You sure?”
“Yeah, I ‘m sure”
I saw her sad eyes turned bright. It made me feel happy. I felt that I did something really nice. She hugged him tight as we walk.
Two weeks passed….. 4weeks…. 2 months….
She didn’t return him.
I don’t know why I can’t ask her about Kristofer.
“Maybe, she still needs him.”
School year was almost over but still she didn’t return Kristofer. This time I confronted her.
“Can you please return him?”
“I thought you already gave it to me!”
“I did not!”
“I don’t want to return him anymore. He is my best friend.”
I couldn’t argue…
Silence….
I wanted to shout at her but nothing went out. I froze while she turned away. We didn’t talk to each other since then. I cried every night thinking that he will never return. Nothing can please me. I stayed at my room the whole summer break.
My dad gave me another teddy bear. He was like Kristofer but better. Aside from its scarf was a suitcase filled with its clothes. I hugged it. It has the same softness but the feeling was very different. Something was missing for he is not Kristofer.
Two years already passed. I still miss him. I long for him. I miss my bestfriend, my teddy.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
footsteps
Footsteps
He looks at me in the eyes
Those eyes that I see in fantasies
Dreamy, I don’t want to wake up
For I might never see them again
The heavens spoke clearly
I followed its command
I made the right choice
My smile was returned
What is this feeling?
Why do I fear of it?
The land disappears from sight
I feel my body light
Contentment
The shrills from the past faded fast
Forgiveness was left
I moved on, I let go
The stones left on the road
Why do they look so small?
Unlike the boulders I saw before
They almost blocked my way
Those eyes I’m seeing are not his
I fear of returning to that place
But would I give myself a chance?
Another life, Another hope?
He looks at me in the eyes
Those eyes that I see in fantasies
Dreamy, I don’t want to wake up
For I might never see them again
The heavens spoke clearly
I followed its command
I made the right choice
My smile was returned
What is this feeling?
Why do I fear of it?
The land disappears from sight
I feel my body light
Contentment
The shrills from the past faded fast
Forgiveness was left
I moved on, I let go
The stones left on the road
Why do they look so small?
Unlike the boulders I saw before
They almost blocked my way
Those eyes I’m seeing are not his
I fear of returning to that place
But would I give myself a chance?
Another life, Another hope?
